I am finally back on the happy end of the mood spectrum, and it's a nice feeling. These days dont' come around nearly as often as they ought. It used to be that if I wasn't happy (which was never, by the way), then I was awfully depressed and all I wanted to do was isolate and hurt. Now when I'm not happy I'm angry and frustrated, and I want to ( Read more... )

My relationship has ended. It hurts, so much, and right now I don't have the tools to cope with that properly, but I am trying the best I can. It makes no sense, and I'm not going to try to figure it out just now. There are no words for any of this, but it has to go somewhere, so it will go here. Writing has always served me so well in the past, ( Read more... )

It is so hot lately, hotter than I like, and I love the heat. Give me summer any day over winter and I am happy. But right now, right now it's just too hot. It's uncomfortable, and impossible to escape. And it's late as well, it should be getting cooler and it just keeps getting hotter. It's like summer has been extended for another month or so, ( Read more... )

Ally is going to have a field day with this. Oh well, I'll let her. She's right, I just don't want to admit it.

So this is a quick little update on Melissa. Only because I'm talking to her on Facebook right now, and we've talked about a lot. I think I'll do this in short paragraph form.

Melissa is having her boobs done. Like she is getting implants. ( Read more... )

I'm back into that mood that I was complaining about losing yesterday. Ok well not really. At work yesterday I had a train of thought, but by the time I finished work and came home and relaxed I wasn't really thinking along those same lines. Now I can again, but it's worse than that as well. I'm so tired. I can't believe that I had at least eight ( Read more... )

This is more than a resolutions post. True, I am making resolutions for the new year, but I'm also throwing out a big plan of things that I want to do. Not silly things, or cliched things, like lose weight or quit smoking (because that would require me to actually start smoking, but you get the picture). This is going to be a detailed life plan for ( Read more... )

I went out last night. And had a good time. Both of those events are so hard to accomplish on their own most of the time, so it was pretty damn lucky that I got both last night. I was pretty determined though. I spent a fair while of the night trailing Melissa and her friends, because Mark just kind of dumped me on them. He sat with me for a little ( Read more... )

[sex]
So Melissa finally came around yesterday afternoon, at about 4pm. She'd originally said morning, then I said that Mark wanted a blow job from her, so she said after lunch and then she'd still be there when Mark finished work at 4pm, but then she got caught up and didn't make it around until just before 4pm. She left just after 7pm.

We probably ( Read more... )

The transition into 2009 was relatively peaceful. I was asleep! I got all dressed up in my awesome cute dress, with awesome red lipstick on and awesome cute flats, and we went to Chad's and I had not even two drinks, and we played drinking games and watched the music channel and had a BBQ for dinner, and talked about WoW and chicks and drinking. I ( Read more... )

I feel like I have so much to talk about, but I'm not sure if any of it is actually worth mentioning. Life has just been moving along, not so much different to any other time. I feel alright though, even after my thing with the anti-depressants on Sunday. Now it's Wednesday and Christmas fever as hit, mostly because I worked today and people are ( Read more... )